So.
I’m single as of this September and I’ve had some time to process things a little. Since sleep is slow coming just now, I figured I’d share what I’ve been thinking.
My concern is this: I’m a deeply affectionate person.
(Lately words like “cornball” have been surfacing in reference to me…)
I really enjoy intimacy and the process of coming to understand another person. That can be a problem, because the process and experience of Relationship can mask any deeper issues of compatibility.
Enjoying components of Relationship makes me ignore the nagging feeling that there might be no fundamental connection. What’s scary is that I’m completely unsure of whether that connected feeling comes about as a result of the experience of affection or if it’s something less identifiable.
In that case I’m just not sure what I ought to be looking for, and that’s unnerving.
